Weight: Not Looking | What Type of Flower are You? I am 34 years old, and up until a few days ago, I had no idea what my favorite flower is. Unlike most women, I haven't spent my life thinking about my dream wedding, perfecting the hairstyles and make-up looks that flatter me the most, or chastising my lover for not getting me the right gift. I simply just did what I could to get by. Don't get me wrong - I love romance, enjoy looking good, and absolutely adore flowers and plants. So it's tragic that I don't know how to set a mood, do my own hair and make-up well, and haven't been to the botanical gardens. So what is the problem? I believe that I've been running my whole life. Mostly in circles, but running nonetheless. I've been focused on things that keep me busy. I'm learning now, with 2 little children, that I would like, more then anything, to learn how to be still. To get to know myself. To really know what I enjoy, seek it out, and immerse myself in it. Why settle for whatever, when I can share what I love and like with the universe? I'm sure this will open the doors for me to receive what I love as well. I'm sure God made all these options available to give us humans subtle ways to get closer to the source. I haven't been on a vacation for YEARS. Planning one gives me anxiety because I cannot even conceptualize the thought of being somewhere with no distractions and nothing to do. I meditate daily, and I'm sure I'd be a horrible person if I didn't, but my peace after this intimate time is short-lived, and in no time it's back to work, crying babies, food to cook, things to pick up, a video to edit, a client to call. Not to mention, I typically spend my meditation time shadow-boxing the many thoughts entering my head. And I would be a liar if I told you that I have stopped mid meditation and prayer to do something I thought of during this time. So - I'm giving myself a Mother's Day gift. I'm going to learn who I am. What fabric do I enjoy the most on my skin? Which colors make me feel peaceful and beautiful? What would my dream wedding be like? How do I create the perfect smokey eyes that make me feel beautiful? What is the best way to braid my hair on my own that looks good and feels comfortable? What is my favorite flower? So - I searched the internet and found her! And she ended up being part of memories I didn't even realize I had. My favorite flower is the Dragon Lily. She was the main attraction for my baby shower for my son Alaric (born the year of the dragon), arranged by my families' guardian angel Carol Adams. She has also been my go to flower during my late teens and early 20s in New York City to snatch from the bodegas and put in my hair. When I smell wonderful perfume, this is the image that formulates in my mind in association - even when I'm smelling a rose. And just now, I went online to see if there was a quiz for what type of flower I am, and I got the Lily! So if you're a late bloomer like me - I urge you to find out what your favorite flower is. I feel so empowered that I've spent this time to get to know myself. A cute starting point is taking this quiz: What Type of Flower are You? And as for me, my next stop is the botanical gardens. I think I might treat myself to some flower bling for my hair too. |
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So it's the first Monday of the year today. As far as I'm concerned, this is the true New Years Day. I don't know why, but it is virtually impossible for me to start and make any plan that starts on any day except for Monday. I'm a creature of habit. In the same token, it is very possible for me to break ANY plan on any day, except Monday. My brain makes life difficult, but when you know what makes you tick, you've got to do what it takes to tock.
So with that being said, I have a diet/exercise plan for week one of my Make Mommy Over plan. I will be doing a 7 day juice cleanse. I've decided that I will wake up each morning nice and early, pack a kid or two (depending on whose awake) and walk to the store to get my produce. If I do this daily, it will ensure fresh produce, as well as get my exercise in for the day, and create some bonding and learning experiences for my babies. If it's raining (you have to have a plan B) - I will STILL go to the store, although I will be driving, and then do a 30 minute/hour workout from my Comcast Fit. Here is Day 1 of my 7 Day Juice Cleanse: Apple Crisp [32oz]
I will also make sure to prepare my exercise clothes nightly so I can put them on as soon as I wake and get to exercising. Wish me luck guys! I'm fortunate to have today and tomorrow off, but come Wednesday, I will have to be back from the store by 5am if I want to get to work on time. I'VE GOT THIS! HOT MAMA COMING THROUGH!!! I finally did it. I joined a dietbet. Paid on the 2nd, but uploaded my pix on the 4th. My scale didn't have a place to live. My house is carpeted and lopsided and I was dreading the prospect of someone taking my picture. I finally found a place in the kitchen where I could take an accurate weight and although it was impossible to get a mirror propped there, I finally just caved in and got my picture taken. Although I'm ashamed and embarrased, I may need to feel those things in order to get my butt in shape. My goal is to lose 70lbs in one year. Hopefully by the time this is 6 months in, I'll have lost 35lbs instead of the 20lbs (10%) that is listed here. Either way, I better lose something. My baby is almost 1 year old and I'm running out of excuses. I just want to live a happy and active life with my children. I want to make sure we can do things together without mommy getting tired. I also want to feel confident and beautiful. I want to take pictures naked and be like "Hot Mama"! I want my family to be proud of me for my physical and not my character (joke). The ironic thing is, I think we are a better version of ourselves when we are healthy. When you feel good, you do good. When you have energy, you can accomplish more and feel better. When you can be an example of good health, you inspire others. I want to be the best version of me possible so my kids, family, and friends can see someone that has made a complete turn around.
My only regret with joining dietbet is that I didn't smile in my upload picture. I think smiling shows that I'm with my choices, which will force me to make good choices. (Hope that's how it works). At least I'll have a dramatic BEFORE picture when I have that dream body this time next year. :) Here is a picture of me smiling and a picture I am proud of. This is what I'm trying to get back to. Good luck and smile throughout this journey! Watch my progress on Make Mommy Over. www.makemommyover.weebly.com
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Meet The AuthorI am a single mom to 2 beautiful young children. My son Alaric is 8 years old, and my daughter Asilia is 6. I am also a caregiver to my younger brother who is 22 and survived a life altering accident that has rendered him blind and partially immobile. My elderly parents live with us and we are family like the phoenix - rising from the ashes. Before co-vid I had 3 jobs I worked as well as building my business, STyler Visuals, a content creation company specializing in photography, interviews, and video for non-profit organizations. Categories |