Weight: Not Looking | What Type of Flower are You? I am 34 years old, and up until a few days ago, I had no idea what my favorite flower is. Unlike most women, I haven't spent my life thinking about my dream wedding, perfecting the hairstyles and make-up looks that flatter me the most, or chastising my lover for not getting me the right gift. I simply just did what I could to get by. Don't get me wrong - I love romance, enjoy looking good, and absolutely adore flowers and plants. So it's tragic that I don't know how to set a mood, do my own hair and make-up well, and haven't been to the botanical gardens. So what is the problem? I believe that I've been running my whole life. Mostly in circles, but running nonetheless. I've been focused on things that keep me busy. I'm learning now, with 2 little children, that I would like, more then anything, to learn how to be still. To get to know myself. To really know what I enjoy, seek it out, and immerse myself in it. Why settle for whatever, when I can share what I love and like with the universe? I'm sure this will open the doors for me to receive what I love as well. I'm sure God made all these options available to give us humans subtle ways to get closer to the source. I haven't been on a vacation for YEARS. Planning one gives me anxiety because I cannot even conceptualize the thought of being somewhere with no distractions and nothing to do. I meditate daily, and I'm sure I'd be a horrible person if I didn't, but my peace after this intimate time is short-lived, and in no time it's back to work, crying babies, food to cook, things to pick up, a video to edit, a client to call. Not to mention, I typically spend my meditation time shadow-boxing the many thoughts entering my head. And I would be a liar if I told you that I have stopped mid meditation and prayer to do something I thought of during this time. So - I'm giving myself a Mother's Day gift. I'm going to learn who I am. What fabric do I enjoy the most on my skin? Which colors make me feel peaceful and beautiful? What would my dream wedding be like? How do I create the perfect smokey eyes that make me feel beautiful? What is the best way to braid my hair on my own that looks good and feels comfortable? What is my favorite flower? So - I searched the internet and found her! And she ended up being part of memories I didn't even realize I had. My favorite flower is the Dragon Lily. She was the main attraction for my baby shower for my son Alaric (born the year of the dragon), arranged by my families' guardian angel Carol Adams. She has also been my go to flower during my late teens and early 20s in New York City to snatch from the bodegas and put in my hair. When I smell wonderful perfume, this is the image that formulates in my mind in association - even when I'm smelling a rose. And just now, I went online to see if there was a quiz for what type of flower I am, and I got the Lily! So if you're a late bloomer like me - I urge you to find out what your favorite flower is. I feel so empowered that I've spent this time to get to know myself. A cute starting point is taking this quiz: What Type of Flower are You? And as for me, my next stop is the botanical gardens. I think I might treat myself to some flower bling for my hair too. |