It has finally happened. I stepped on the scale today and saw a number I thought I'd never see. It's funny, because I've been flirting a couple pounds under it for several weeks now, but actually SEEing the infamous 190.4lbs on the scale made me scream ENOUGH is ENOUGH! Unlike other times when I've felt hopeless and ugly and disgusting, I actually just feel internally convicted. I understand that there are no shortcuts. What happened to my body is EXACTLY what should have happened considering how negligent I've been with my health. I started this blog in hopes of losing 50lbs, now it has turned to a stanking 70lbs due to me totally doing everything wrong for the past few months. The holidays definitely spanked my ass into a place I thought I'd never see. So now that I'm here, what do I do? The first thing I did is take some embarrassing pictures of myself so I can have a visual of what I don't want to look like. Then, I made sure I dressed up really nice to go to work so I wouldn't feel like a slob. Then I jumped online to see what my BMI (body mass index) is and discovered that I am OBESE. I'm at a 33.8 BMI and should be between an 18.5 - 24.9 BMI. A healthy weight is between 107 to 135 lbs. I've chosen 120 since I remember when I was that weight and felt GAWGEOUS! The next thing I did was stalk DietBet to find a group to start as close to pay day as possible (January 2nd).I'm sooooo happy it's a New Year, because I can totally start over. Please pay attention, because this time next year I'm going to be looking totally different. I'm not playing around! In my high school year book I wrote, "Virtually all limitations are self-imposed." I remember how those words have resonated with me my whole life. Some how I stopped steering life where I wanted to go and just started floating. So I say ENOUGH! I'm taking the reigns and steering where I want to go. One way ticket to no obesity land for me. :) See you there! |